Love, Pain and Loss…Chihauhau Style

Buddy and MeThis morning at about three-thirty, I reached out with my hand to make sure he was sleeping, only to find a cold, empty place when Buddy slept. I got out of bed with tears on my face, and again my heart broke.

Earlier this week, Wednesday, we lost Buddy. He had developed Diabetes over a year ago, resulting in blindness. Buddy Bear Barkinstein, our sixteen-year-old Chihuahua, received two insulin shots every day. When he lost his sight, we wanted to sleep with my husband and me. It was a concession we gladly accepted. He tried but didn’t always make the PeePee pads he had used for many years.

He required constant attention when we were home. I was happy to do whatever he needed. I was his human mama.

I had taken him to the vet the Friday before. He came home with some additional medication for his heart and blood pressure. Yet Buddy, who I often call a little piggy, hadn’t eaten the Wednesday or Thursday before our vet appointment. Over the weekend he had still not eaten and barely drink.

I have been here before with another furry baby, my teacup Chihuahua named Granny. So even before my appointment with his wonderful vet, I had an idea what was going to happen.

The vet-tech texted me only an hour after I had dropped Buddy off to ask if I could come back and speak with the vet. Dr. A., a magnificent young woman, did not want to use the Video Relay Service. She did not want to text me. She desired to speak to me face to face.

Buddy’s heart was double the size it should have been. He was struggling to breathe because his lungs had been compressed to a third of their size by his swollen heart. There might, she explained, be some help, however, the closest Cardiac Veterinarian was in Seattle. Seattle is an hour and a half drive for us. Well worth the trip, but she let me know Buddy probably wouldn’t make it more than a day or two as his little body was beginning to shut down.

I brought him home and spent the following day, from three in the morning until three thirty in the afternoon, loving and being with him. I laid on the floor when he wanted in his bed. When he staggered down the hallway to our bedroom, we curled up on my bed and napped.

People who do not have Fuzzy Children cannot comprehend how great the loss is when they are gone. My heart, as well as my family’s, is broken. The hole that Buddy occupied in my heart is empty.

I will continue to cry and wish Buddy was here. Yet I have twelve years of beautiful memories of my little darling to help me through this tough time.

Thank you for all of you who sent well wishes. It really did help soothe my pain.

Thank you for your time and as always “Keep Reading!”

Raj Lowenstein


To Pee or not to Pee?  What a great Question! (A repost!)

The call of nature beacons to us all. Not only that but we eat, shower/bath, brush our teeth and, at least for me, try to figure what the hell to do with my hair.

The call of nature beacons to us all. Not only that but we eat, shower/bath, brush our teeth and, at least for me, try to figure what the hell to do with my hair.

But, do we want to read about it in a book.

I am a drinker of water. The doctor would be proud of me because I consistently hit my 80 oz. of water a day.  This, however, means I take many trips to “powered my nose,” “freshen up,” or visit the WC.

When I write, I do include trips to the bathroom. Not as many as most fictional characters would but still part of the day in the life of the people who populate my books.

Another thing that always bothers me when watching a movie or made for television movie is that people wake up after a long nights sleep to make wild passionate love. Excuse me!  I have nasty elephant breath in the morning. Never in over twenty years of marriage have my husband, and I woke up and made whoopee without first visiting the loo to freshen up AND brush our teeth.

As fiction follows reality, my characters do the same thing.

For me, creating characters who do real things in their storylines makes them and their situations real.

We write what we know.

Thank you for your time and as always “Keep Reading!”

Raj Lowenstein

Press release…TUCSON NEWS NOW

New Modern-Day Romantic Thriller Released

Author Raj Lowenstein has written a compelling novel that appears more disturbingly real than fiction

BELLINGHAM, Wash. (PRWEB) September 25, 2017

Author Raj Lowenstein has released her debut novel, “Through the Fire,” that follows the story of Michael, a beautiful woman who is mute and communicates through American Sign Language as she tries to escape her past while falling in love with her protector.

Filled with back stories, steamy romantic episodes, gender-related issues, investigation, and an evil antagonist this unique story for modern-day readers builds up to an intense and gripping conclusion.

Lowenstein has always had a passion for writing and created a lead character who was mute as she herself is deaf and communicates through American Sign Language and wanted readers to experience the life and struggles of a deaf person. She also explores the topic of gender-related issues as her family has strong ties to the GLBT community and knows this is a very important topic to discuss in America right now.

“Through the Fire” received the Gold Seal of Literary Excellence from Trafford Publishing and Lowenstein is already receiving critical praise:

“Key to Lowenstein’s writing style is the use of engaging dialogue to generate dynamic characters who are developing their relationships and facing life’s challengesKudos to Lowenstein for creating an edgy and eye-opening debut!” – Recommended by the US Review of Books

To learn more please visit the author’s website.

“Through the Fire”
By Raj Lowenstein
ISBN: 978-1-4907-6839-7 (e), 978-1-4907-6838-0 (sc), 978-1-4907-6840-3 (hc)
Available at AmazonBarnes & Noble, and Village Books (Fairhaven, WA)

About the author
Author Raj Lowenstein has a Bachelors’ Degree in American Sign Language Interpreting with a Minor in Jewish Studies from the University of Houston. She started writing “Through the Fire” in 2004 while attending Gallaudet University in Washington, D.C. for a semester. Even though she has had poems published in literary magazines, it took her only 40 years to decide that it was OK to actually have her book published. This is her first of many books so stay tuned! Lowenstein currently lives with her husband and fat Chihuahua in the Pacific Northwest and they have three children and three grandchildren.

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Where to Eat!

Through the Fire takes place in and around the Montrose area of Houston.  Michael, Daniel and occasionally Kelly frequented different establishments for a meal and conversation.

Houston, like many large metropolitan areas, is known for its many excellent restaurants. The Pappas chain of restaurants was featured in the book. YaYa Mary’s happens to be one of my favorites when I am in Houston. Michael and Kelly have lunch there as they discuss a note left my Danial. Examining in detail each word for meaning, Michael and Kelly perhaps started with an appetizer of Saganaki Cheese, followed by a Greek salad and finishing off with one of my favorites Moussaka. Another favorite place is Pappadeaux. Daniel and Michael eat at this favorite Cajan Style restaurant on one of their first days out as a couple.

Katz’ Deli a popular New York Style deli in the heart of Montrose, was another place that was in Through the Fire. The Matzo Ball Soup and the Stuffed Cabbage are two of my favorites. Daniel and Michael had eaten breakfast there as the restaurant is just around the corner from Daniel’s condo.

If you are in Houston, and you like to eat, try out one of these places. I am sure you will enjoy!

Thank you for your time and as always “Keep Reading!”

Raj Lowenstein


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Ok, I know. It might be small of me, but like this bear, I am dancing for joy.  Not because I just caught a big salmon for dinner, but because Star Trek: Discovery vindicated me!

First and foremost, I am a big Trekkie. Being the daughter of a NASA engineer, I grew up on space travel and science fiction.  I am my father’s daughter in this respect.

Buy why the vindication?  In my first book Through the Fire, the main character is Michael Braun. She is a nurse working for her friend, Dr. David Hartman.  Many people asked, “Why would you name a female character Michael?”  I was always shocked at this question, as I have known three women personally whose name was Michael.  Also, there is Michael Learned, who was the actress who played JohnBoy’s mother on The Waltons.

Then finally on the 24th of September CBS’s new show Star Trek: Discovery introduced us to the main character, the former First Officer, and Mutineer Michael Burnham.

So, like bear, I did a little dance of joy. See there are women named Michael.

OH, that felt nice!

Thank you for your time and as always “Keep Reading!”

Raj Lowenstein